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Writer's pictureElaine Elizabeth

Loving the Darkness Within: Disidentifying from Our Behaviors



Understanding Shadow Aspects

What Are Shadow Aspects?

We've all heard the term "shadow work," which is trending in the spiritual community. But what exactly does it mean? And where did it come from? Shadow aspects refer to those parts of ourselves that we hide, suppress, or deny. To understand and integrate them, we must first recognize that light and dark are both essential in our world. Just as we need both the night sky and the day sky, our energetic beings require a balance of light and dark.

The Equinox and Solstice Balance

When the equinox and solstice occur, they help balance the equal measures of light and dark not just in our environment but within us as well. Society often aims for feel-good experiences and happiness, treating painful experiences as something undesirable. However, the key difference lies in how we shift our perception of these painful experiences and learn from them.

Shifting Our Perspective

  • Psychological Imprints and Subconscious Behaviors: As human beings, we have psychological imprints and subconscious behaviors. Becoming aware of these behaviors and thought patterns is crucial. Without understanding how these shadow behaviors developed, we can't get to the core of why they began. You may stop a behavior temporarily but unless you address why it was created, you will continue to repeat the same patterns.

  • The Example of New Year's Resolutions: Take New Year's resolutions, for instance. Many people list things they don't like about themselves or want to improve. Yet, they don't get to the core of why they dislike these aspects of themselves. For lasting change, you need to understand why a behavior was created in the first place. This usually traces back to connecting with our inner child and identifying moments when we felt neglected, invalidated, or were told we were too much.


Society's View on Shadow Aspects

Our society often sees shadow aspects as bad. However, it's essential to recognize that we need both sides. Shadow is merely a part of the whole experience. We wouldn't know joy without pain. We wouldn't understand love and kindness if that's all we experienced. The darkest moments can serve as portals to our brightest moments when we use them to evolve and change our cycles and patterns.


“As much darkness as one experiences within their lifetime, that is exactly in direct proportion to how much light one person can harness.”

Origin of the Term: Carl Jung

Carl Jung was one of the first to coin the term "shadow aspect." He referred to it in the context of the subconscious and unconscious mind—areas not readily illuminated. Connecting our subconscious mind to our conscious motives is part of shadow work. This involves exploring parts of our mind and thoughts that aren't regularly accessed.

 We are constantly absorbing information from our environment, media, and interactions. This information gets stored in our unconscious mind. Shadow work involves acknowledging this and diving into it to understand our behaviors better. Awareness of these hidden parts allows us to address generational healing and what we've subconsciously inherited from our family and society at large.

Embracing the Dark

We've been conditioned to associate darkness with bad or evil. Especially in spiritual or religious contexts, dark forces are often portrayed negatively. By noticing how often dark is linked with bad, we can start to break down this conditioning.


Breaking Down Shadow Aspects

Learning why these behaviors started and tracing them back to our inner child is crucial. Understanding that we are not inherently our behaviors can help us show compassion towards ourselves. We were created from love, not evil. Our shadow aspects are merely armor we developed to meet our needs as children.

“Creation is chaotic. Think of a butterfly that needs to turn into a cocoon and break down into goop before it can become a butterfly.”

Like butterflies, flowers need the dark, rich soil to bloom. Similarly, we need these moments of complete breakdown to rebuild ourselves stronger and more beautiful. Even if we deny certain behaviors or aspects of ourselves, we still crave love and acceptance.

  • Not Bad, Just Hurt: Many of us grew up thinking we were inherently bad. But often, we were just very hurt. We acted out because we didn't know how to cope with our defenses. The phrase "hurt people hurt people" is apt—people who are hurt often act out because their subconscious minds aren't being addressed or healed.

Common Shadow Aspects

  • Emotional Numbing: Emotional numbing can appear as addiction or detachment from one's feelings. Growing up in an environment that swept emotions under the rug can lead to numbing behaviors in adulthood, such as substance abuse or obsessive behaviors to avoid facing pain.

  • Perfectionism: Perfectionism isn't just about getting everything perfect. It can manifest as a reluctance to take risks or put oneself out there due to fear of not being good enough. This can harm relationships as unexamined self-criticism gets projected onto others.

  • Control Issues: Control issues stem from a sense of life being out of control. Attempts to manipulate situations or people to meet our needs are futile. Recognizing that the illusion of control is just that—an illusion—can help us relinquish our need to control and live more authentically.

  • People Pleasing and Aggression: People pleasing involves saying yes when you mean no or toning down your personality to avoid conflict. Aggression, on the other hand


When embarking on a healing journey, understanding our behaviors and the underlying archetypes can significantly transform the process.

The Duality of Experiences

So what I had found very helpful and quite necessary, actually, for my healing and unbecoming process was learning about behaviors and these shadow aspects. Rather than solely identifying with the shadow aspects, it was very important for me to also recognize that each of these shadow aspects also has a helpful potential. Like with most things in life, every experience has two sides to the coin.

When we think of duality, we often categorize experiences as right or wrong, good or bad, yes or no. We have a tendency to label experiences as either positive or negative. But for me, it was essential to understand and heal that these behaviors and experiences are just mechanisms.


“Understanding archetypes allowed me to see both aspects of my behaviors; while destructive in one context, they can be transformative in another.”

The Healing Power of Archetypes

Archetypes provide a framework to comprehend human behavior, a concept popularized by Carl Jung. Diving into archetypes enabled me to view myself as a character—recognizing my behaviors as mechanisms to get my needs met at different points in time. This realization helped me disidentify from these behaviors, understanding that acting in a certain way doesn't define me as a person.


Disidentification from Destructive Behaviors

Learning about archetypes helped me see that my behaviors were merely attempts to meet childhood needs or protect myself. This understanding was pivotal in my healing journey, allowing for compassion and a higher perspective. Recognizing that behaviors were barriers to my truth helped me separate my actions from my true essence.

Common Archetypes in Society

Throughout society, archetypes manifest in various forms. Here are a few prominent ones:

  • The Warrior: The Warrior archetype is often seen as someone ready to battle, defending themselves or others out of honor. However, there's a shadow side where warriors can become overly aggressive, taking away others' power. The light side of the warrior manifests in the form of inner strength and integrity.

    • Example: I had to transition from pushing my views onto others to standing in integrity and strength from my inner knowing, allowing others their own views.

  • The Prostitute: Often misunderstood, the Prostitute archetype represents selling oneself out to secure survival needs. This can manifest in various ways, such as compromising on values for job security. The light side involves recognizing and honoring one's values without compromising integrity.

  • The Healer: The Healer archetype is someone who has experienced significant hurt and trauma but learns to heal themselves and others. The shadow side involves focusing on others’ healing while neglecting one’s own. Balancing this allows healers to guide others effectively without self-sacrifice.

Reflective Questions for Self-Assessment

To integrate shadow aspects and foster self-awareness, consider these reflective questions:

  • In what areas and relationships do I see shadow aspects coming out?

  • What needs are these shadow behaviors trying to meet?

  • How have past experiences shaped my reactions and responses?

  • How might my beliefs about myself and the world have contributed to the development of my shadow aspects?

  • How can I cultivate compassion and self-forgiveness as I work to integrate these aspects?

Embracing and Integrating Shadow Aspects

Embracing shadow aspects involves understanding that these parts of ourselves, though once necessary, may no longer serve our current purpose. By delving into the core of our behaviors, we can transform these patterns and align them with our true essence.


Reconnecting to Our Inner Child

In our journey toward healing, we explored the process of reconnecting to our inner child. If you've done any exercises or timelines, you might have reflected on the times in your childhood when you had to learn how to get your own needs met. These are often moments when you weren't taken care of emotionally, validated, or nurtured. The ways we learned to cope during these times are the shadow aspects that appear in our adult lives.


Shadow aspects are not our enemies; they are parts of ourselves yearning for recognition and integration. By understanding their origins and embracing them with compassion, we embark on a profound journey of self-discovery and healing. Remember, we are inherently light and love, even when shrouded in darkness. As we navigate the complexities of our inner world, let's extend ourselves the same grace we would offer a loved one. It is in the depths of our shadow that we find the fertile ground for our most radiant transformation. each step towards understanding and integrating our shadow, we move closer to living a life aligned with our true essence. May we all continue to embrace the full spectrum of ourselves, darkness and light, for a more complete and authentic existence.

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